Starting Over

Back to square one since the blood issue, ya know... kinda a set back and it caused me to gain at least 20 pounds... SOOOO here I go again- I weigh the most I've ever weighed in my life and it's hard to swallow!! But I need to get myself back sooo badly. It will make me feel so much better and happier, I just know it! So, to get to my pre-married weight I will need to lose about 45 pounds, but I am ok with weighing 140 so I will need to lose 30 pounds. My friend Kati is a huge inspiration, I hope she doesn't mind, but this is her site http://skinnykatipowell.blogspot.com/ let her inspire you too. My sister is too, she works out in front of my lazy self every single day. Ok.. seriously, here I go!! I will check in again in a few days or a week..

Sad and Depressing

Since being in the hospital and being on the medication Prednisone, I've gained all the weight back. It's very depressing. But I have high hopes that once I get off the medicine I will shrink back down.. but mean while, it really sucks to look in the mirror and be seen in public. I feel fat. I don't feel pretty. I look in the mirror and I don't see me. I see someone I've always dreaded to be and tried to never become. The medicine also makes me break out in zits.. So not only do I feel ugly from looking fat but I also feel ugly from my pizza face. I normally have very clear skin. I don't want to go out in public. I am depressed about my looks right now. I hate it.

Above pic: Before the meds (just weeks before)

Below pic: While on the meds (just a week and a half ago)

Since I've Been Sick...

... I've lost more weight. I'm down to 151.8 now. Just a couple pounds more until I am at a healthy weight! That's exciting to think about. I just gotta keep it up. This sounds strange but I am going to do weight loss hypnosis... I'll let you know how it goes.

Here we go again

I need to get back into the swing of things. I haven't worked out since Gracie has been born. Well we went on a walk last week in the heat so that works. Anyway, here I go again!!

Have you lost more weight?

I've been getting that question a lot lately but I haven't worked out for a while so I'm scared to weigh myself. But lots of people say it looks like I have lost weight. I sure hope so! Maybe one of these days I will get the guts up to weigh myself.